A Comics Strip, My Prayer, and the Song of My Heart

          We were dismissed early at work today because of the strong typhoon named 'Yolanda'. Still, we need to pray for those who were badly affected by the storm. Anyway, about this entry of mine. I read in one of the Christian websites that I have visited, a very beautiful prayer, "Prayer for a future husband." I'm really very vocal about this desire of mine. Still, I am not giving up and I'm not losing hope that someday, GOD will bring us together. Sometimes I can't help but ask, 'what's taking it so long?' Here's a comics strip that I found on the internet that exactly describes how I feel.

I remember someone said, if we are going to ask GOD for something, why not tell Him about what you really want. So I edited this prayer that I found on a website and added my very own list. The author of this prayer is now married to the man of her dreams. (I included the link of the webpage below). Yes, I believe that GOD can write your own love story, not just a love story but a beautiful one! So here's the prayer. To all the single Christian women right now, you can use this as a pattern when you pray someday for your future husband. It's not too late to pray, maybe you can start praying now! Also, I'm not saying that GOD will send you a husband with the exact qualities that you've asked for. This is just my way of asking Him, and I'm not in a way setting your hopes high that GOD will send you your 'ideal person', after all, He knows what's best for us. We still need to trust Him regarding this matter.

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Dear Almighty GOD, our Father, (Adonai Elohai, Abba)

I want a Christian home. I want to raise a Christian family. One that goes to church on Sundays, is involved with the church, and prays together at night. I want a husband. I want a spiritual leader. A man that will lead me. I want that man who prays for me, and I pray for him. I want a man that prays with me. Who smiles because he’s drunk in love with YOU! Who relies on You.

I want a man who is unconditional in his ways (love, gifts, kindness, helping hand). Who doesn’t expect things in return – EVER. Who accepts the world as it is and doesn’t let it affect his walk with You. I want a man who wants to change the world.

I want a man that knows You!!! I want a man that will accept Your blessings even the small ones. A man that makes me feel like he can make a mountain out of a mole hill even if there is no dirt or rock to make one with. I want a man that is positive and understanding. A man that makes me push to be a better person. A man excited about life and looks forward to life after death. A man that has a spot in heaven and will help me in my spiritual journey. Because that’s what life is … a journey of grace. God’s grace.

And while I’m asking. Can I have a man who is a gentleman? A man who has goals in life and who knows how to manage his money? Someone who is either musically inclined, or someone who is creative and artistic, who loves learning new things, and is a patient and a good teacher to me. Someone, who's more like me in not so many ways, and most importantly someone whom I like, and who likes me too!

All these, I ask in Jesus' (Yeshua's) name.

Still waiting patiently. Amen.

(click on the title link below, 'Prayer for a future husband' to direct you to the webpage)

 Prayer for a future husband 

          I will not end this entry, without giving you a song. This is a really beautiful (duet) song made for married couples and also for single people like us, who are still waiting. John Waller is the singer of this song, he's the one who sang the OST of 'Fireproof', "While I'm Waiting." He sang this together with his wife, Josee.

         My prayer for all of you who are still waiting, I hope and pray that GOD will bless you in this season of waiting, that You continue Your walk with the Lord, our GOD, and to always put Your trust in Him no matter what.  GOD be praised always!

The Marriage Prayer

Father, I said 'till
Death do us part
I want to mean it
With all of my heart

Help me to love You
More than I love her
Then I know I can
Love her more
Than anyone else
 
And bring her in
Your presence today
Make her what
You want her to be

I pray to hear her heart
I pray she'll love You more
I pray to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring You glory today, I pray

Father, I said 'till
Death do us part
I want to mean it
With all of my heart

Help me to love You
More than I love him
Then I know I can
Love him more
Than anyone else

And bring him in
Your presence today
Make him what
You want him to be

I pray to hear his heart
I pray he'll love You more
I pray to strengthen and serve him
We'll bring You glory today, I pray

Lord, help me love her
As You love the church, Your bride
Help me submit to him
As I submit to You, my life
 
This is my prayer. Amen.

Teach My Heart

            Everyone of us is struggling with something, one way or another we all have struggles. We try to remove these things in our lives the hard way, like when we remove dark stains in a plain sheet of cloth. These past few months has been really hard for me. Like Achilles I was hit by an arrow not in my heel but in my heart. My heart is my weak point, like Achilles' heel. So does everyone of us.

               I was not really aware that it has become an "idol", and that desire has almost consumed me. It has even come to a point that I was really affected by that "desire", to the point my relationship with GOD was really affected. It also has become a persistent thought in my head that even my sleep pattern was affected. Selfish desires engulfed me and I have been also acting immaturely over these feelings, and shameful as it is I was really "sourgraping", when I came to know I cannot get hold of that "desire".

              Still, GOD has been merciful and watching me all these time. I thank my fellow Christian brothers and sisters who are helping me get my life back on track. I was rebuked , and it felt like a slap in the face. A rebuke is painful but like the verse in the bible, "Better is open rebuke than hidden love." (Proverbs 27:5). 

               My prayer now is for our Lord GOD to change my heart and teach my heart to focus and fall in love with Him, day by day, like the prayer of St.Anselm, a theologian and a philosopher, that I might find Him in my desire, and that in desiring Him, I might find Him and when I find Him, I will love Him more and more each day. 

(click on the title link below to listen and watch the music video)

Teach My Heart (MV)

Oh Lord, my GOD teach my heart where and how to seek You, teach my heart where and how to find You.

You are my GOD and You are my All and I have never seen You.
You have made me and remade me,
You have bestowed on me all the good things I possess,
Still I do not know You…

I have not yet done that for which I was made….
Teach me to seek You…

I cannot seek You unless you teach me
or find You unless you show yourself to me.
Let me seek You in my desire, let me desire You in my seeking.
Let me find You by loving You, let me love You when I find You.

Teach me Lord, where and how to find You...